I should have known that today would be a little off as soon as I woke up this morning. You see, this morning when I woke up, it was raining. It rained while I got ready, rained while I drove to school, rained while I waited for the bus, it just rained rained rained and it's STILL raining. This might seem abnormal to the average person (I know if I were in Ohio I wouldn't think twice) but in Georgia there's been a HUGE drought over the past few years. So when it rains in Georgia, people react the same way they do when it rains in Pheonix: they look up to the sky with amazement.
I guess I should back up. I've been mulling over some "stuff" for the past few days/weeks. I've been homesick. I've been lonely. I've been needing my friends more than ever. I guess you could say I'm finally realizing this transition I've been in the midst of. Georgia is no longer a temporary place for me. For the next two years, it's my home.
So dealing with this revelation along with my first two midterms of grad school and a looming doctor's appointment were weighing on my mind. See? I should have known it would all blow open when I saw that today... it was raining in Georgia. (edit: it's POURING in Georgia.)
So it all sort of came to blows today when I went to my doctor's appointment. Prior to going I got a call (not bad... actually very friendly) from a guy that always makes me a little emotional... Then I got to the doctor's appointment and all hell broke loose. I was prepared for one thing and she ended up wanting to do another. It (I) fell apart. Right there in the room. While I was talking to the doctor.
Something that should not have made me upset (maybe a little frustrated... but no tears were necessary) suddenly opened the floodgates. I apologized profusely and we were able to get back on track, but at that moment I was President, VP, Secretary, and founding member of the Hot Mess Club.
Interestingly enough, though, I feel so much better now. I feel like I'm de-stressed and ready to take on the next challenge. I feel as though maybe I've come to terms with the things that were building up. Or maybe I just recognized that it was there. Nevertheless, I felt the release.
Also... and this has nothing to do with the tears or the rain... I FINALLY got my absentee ballot today! I am SO excited. :)
So with that, I think I'm going to go lay in my bed, listen to the rain, and read. After all, rain doesn't come too often around here.